Friday, November 20, 2015

                                                                                                                                     Illustration: Keaton Henson

The morning after a mental breakdown is always awkward; you don't really know how to relate to yourself, let alone anyone else, or the world as a whole. You just pretend everything is normal, that you're sane and OK. And this is how you never learn your lesson; this is why you go on making the same mistakes over and over again. There's a difference in getting through the storm, making it out barely intact, and telling yourself that you'll be fine, then go on believing that, but then there's also self-suppression, consciously ignoring the core of the issue—lying to yourself, not really believing you're fine, but acting as if you are. This is what keeps you coming back to that dark place.